I just believed that I was alright before volunteering the program.
But the program gave an opportunity to witness my stupid mind more closely
than i did before.
I was just ok with everything only if it was under my acceptance level.
I couldn't accept certain moments because it didn't happen the way I wished
it should have been.
Sadhguru used to say "Offer yourself totally. If it is the best service,
nobody can't help availing it." I said this to myself most of the times and
just offered myself.
To my wonder, I explored much on the given task than what I could have done
on the task I was expecting to do.
I was also able to watch my mind which had so many discriminations on
people judging their looks and behavior.
Sometimes, I was thinking that I should do more than others. When the work
is little difficult (like moving tables/chairs), I wanted to do little.
LOL!!!
Then I realized that "Work may cause only pain not suffering".
My stupidity is a long story which cannot be described in a single mail so
I stop it with this.
On the day of trekking, I was in the assignment of escorting one of the
participants.
Sadhguru was playing Frisbee with the participants. The way he played
Frisbee was amazing. Whenever the Frisbee flied far away, he asked others
to take it. He was standing in his limits and playing joyfully.
Sadhguru was sitting on a rock while we were rolling down from the
mountain. One participant was saying to Sadhguru, "Climbing up is very
difficult but going down is damn easy". Sadhguru said, "That is how
everything in life is".
I wanted to share my experience with the participants on closing, for which
i had had so many rehearsals during the program.
I was sitting in the hall on final day. The moment sadhguru started
speaking about volunteering, my eyes started shedding eyes.
He wanted only one / two volunteers to share about their experience. I
stood up and walking towards mike very slowly. He said to me, "Konjam
vegama varalaam".
I didn't even use a single word that I was thinking to share. It was
Sadhguru who made me speak. I delivered his words.
Only in the evening I was able to sense that "It's not volunteers who do
the work, it's Sadhguru who makes it happen. We are acting as mere tools".
