She felt worthwhile, valuable and loved

Ellen shares her experience of attending Shambhavi program with Sadhguru in Atlanta, USA.
"I am left with so many impressions........the smiling faces of volunteers, my first glimpse of Sadghuru; the delcious food prepared and served; the relay race at the park, hearing my own laughter and enjoying the comaraderie of my team; the challenge of keeping the volley ball up in the air; the playfulness of Sahdguru as he volleyed the ball in the air to help us earn points, so we could have our breakfast.

How this man draws people together is an absolute wonder and miracle to behold. In his own quiet way, he teaches us that we are all magnificent and if we choose to live a lifeless existence, then that is what we will have. It's impossible to describe how much love I felt in Sadhguru's presence; I wept as he walked by me at the close of the program. At the same time, how in awe I was of his steady manner, his inimitable patience and his ability to speak for hours on end in the same loving, clear way, and his uncanny gift of telling a story and making us laugh; how he caught us off guard (while some of us were getting drowsy) and distracted us -- in order to help us and to help each other!!!

At midday on Sunday -- my limbs aching and my brain feeling numb -- thinking I could not absorb one more word or move my body in any way - I decided I should leave, that I just wasn't up to this challenge. At the same time, I realized that this man would never have let me just walk out of there. He would have asked me where I was going, and then I would have crumbled. So, even without me leaving and him stopping me, I experienced what the outcome would be. I remained because I knew that Sadhguru would challenge me, and I knew that I would be no match for the love that he is. I'm so glad I stayed. I also realized what a pattern this has been for me; just before breaking through, I quit or let myself down -- not this time. I attribute this to the empowerment and love that Sadhguru imbued us with - it's inescapable. Believe me, if someone could and would escape an uncomfortable situation, it would be me. The only difference on Sunday was that someone in the room made me feel worthwhile and valuable and loved. Sadhguru's is to make the world a better place, person by person; then his love is truly limitless, and I've never run into that in a person before this.

Now a day later, back home in NJ this morning, all this is clear to me and if only one day later, after initiation, I have already realized what I now know, how much more incredible will the future be as I continue the practice. I cannot even fathom what the future holds, but I will tell you this - I am more excited right now than I have ever been about my life. I owe this to Sadhguru. Many thanks to all of you who volunteer your time and have devoted your life to his mission, which has become your mission. I bow to you and am honored to have been welcomed into the fold.